Pieces of me

De repente siento, veo cambios a mi alrededor, todo gira, todo avanza pero yo sigo acá. Dura, inmóvil. qué me pasa? Qué te pasa? Hace algo. Gritá. Corré. Pero no podía. Tenía mis pies atados, y no tenía voz. Estaba sola en medio del torbellino. No había opciones ni ayuda. Estaba sola. Como siempre.
Me desperté y reflexioné sobre mi sueño, pero no le di mucha importancia, siempre sueño cosas raras, bizarras e inexplicables. Cosas que me describen. Como lo que escribo. Encuentro a la escritura como la mejor vía de escape, pero también como un cable a tierra, aquello que me permite soñar pero también descargarme y expresarme. Ser libre. Ser yo. Cosa que en este mundo parece imposible. Todos debemos responder a los cánones que esta sociedad pide, ser flacos, lindos, adinerados, sino no servimos. No aparecemos. El conocimiento es algo inútil, no se valora ni premia. Se esconde, se evita porque el efecto que tiene en las personas es liberador, y eso a muchos no les conviene. A la religión no le conviene que las personas piensen que por sí solas pueden descubrir el cielo y no necesitan ser guiados (si es que se cree en la existencia de un cielo) a los gobiernos no les conviene que las personas se den cuenta de sus tretas y de su burocracia, o de la realidad. Les conviene que vean solo lo que ellos quieren mostrar sin refutarlo.
Por eso escribiendo, me propongo ir contra la marea, contra los que piensan que callados y pasivos construimos un mundo mejor. Porque no es así. Las acciones pueden construir al igual que destruir. Eso depende de la intención que tengamos y de la ejecución de las acciones. Ubicarse en el contexto social que uno vive, no soñar demasiado pero lo justo. Soñar. Porque a partir de sueños se construyen grandes realidades. Preguntarse cosas, buscar respuestas y hacerlas realidad. Hacer el sueño realidad para así llegar a ese momento de dicha, gratificante pero efímero que se hace llamar felicidad.

Otra bomba de humo

El tiempo pasa. veranos esfumándose, inviernos qe no llegaron y otoños que son recuerdo.

Todo pasa si lo pensamos bien, los enojos, las lágrimas, las alegrías, las crisis. Siempre hay algo más, lo que no significa que lo que viene sea mejor. En muchos casos no lo es. Es algo más, que se suma a nuestra historia y que acumularemos en el recuerdo, o no. Tal vez lo dejemos pasar tal como vino.

Nunca sentiste que dejaste pasar algo demasiado bueno por esperar algo más? Algo "mejor". Lamentablemente siempre nos damos cuenta de que no hay nada mejor tarde. Siempre tarde, a destiempo. Será algo natural? algo que deberíamos aceptan en vez de tratar de modificarlo o prevenirlo? Eso nunca va a suceder. Aunque sepamos que es nuestra naturaleza siempre vamos a pelear contra ella. Como lo hacemos con todo. Nos rebelamos contra la autoridad para demostrar que somos fuertes, nos rebelamos contra la religión para demostrar que no necesitamos a nadie, a ningún Dios. Nos rebelamos contra nuestra familia, para buscar la independencia y el respeto, pero no el respeto de otros, sino nuestro propio respeto. "Eso" que nos hace mejores, únicos.

The Giver ♥

• I liked the feeling of love. I wish we still had that. Of course i do understand that it wouldnt work very well. I can see that it was a dangerous way to live.

• There could be love. Jonas whispered.

• Memories are forever.

• -They cant help it. they know NOTHING.
- You said that to me once before.
- I said it cause it was true. its the way they live. its the life that was created for them. Its the same life that you would have, if you had not been chosen as my successor.

• The worst part of holding the memories its not the pain. Its the lonelines of it. Memories need to be shared.

• Having you here with me over the past year made me realize that things must change. For years ive felted that they should, but it seemed so hopeless.. Now for the first time i think there might be a way..

• It was possible, what they had planned. Barely possible. If it failed. He would very likely be killed. But what did that mattered? If he stayed, his life was no longer worth living.

• - So if you escape, once you are gone , and you know that you can never return..
- Yes, i know. But if you come with me..

• Once he had yeaned for choice. Then, when he had a choice, he had made the wrong one: The choice to leave. But if he had stayed.. His thoughts continued.If he had stayed he would have starved in other ways. He would have live a life hungry for feelings, for color, for love.

• Behind him, across vast distances of space and time, from the place he had left, he thought he heard music too. But perhaps it was only an echo

Paramore Quotes.

It takes some time to let you go, and it shows.
THIS isnt what you wanted.. is it?
I climb, i slip, i fall into your empty hands.
Im sure ill be pretending, just like I am tonight. Ill never let this go, but I cant find the words to tell you,I dont wanna be alone,but now I feel like I dont know you.
I hope for change, but still I feel the same, there's something wrong.
Explain to me, this CONSPIRACY AGAINST ME. tell me how i've LOST my POWER.
I need something more, but tell me why i feel so ALONE.
I thought that we'd make, cause you said "We'll make it through"
Going back to getaway, after EVERYTHING has changed.
You remind me of a time when we were so alive ♥, DO YOU REMEMBER THAT?
This place we live, it isn't were we belong, and I miss who we were..
I wont get used to this, I wont get used to being GONE.
I've fallen down, and I CANT do this ALONE. My heart is...
Im NOTHING now, and its been so long..
I tripped over your fragile ego, right into the web you've opened.
You NEVER told me you wanted to love someone, somebody just like ME.
You LOCKED all the DOORS, you put up the WALL, and now your whole world is CAVE IN.
Counting stars to name your LIES.
And here we go AGAIN! with all the things we said and NOT a minute spent. to think that we regret, so we just take it back
Cant say im sad to see you go, cause im not (?
What would u think of me now?
May angels lead you there..
Do you think of me? And do you wonder.. if we could ever BE?
Tell me where our time went, and if it was time well spend, just dont let me fall asleep, feeling empty AGAIN.
Im losing hope, and there's nothing else to show.
Somethings i'll NEVER know, and I have to let them go, im sitting all ALONE, feeling EMPTY.
Each tear you FAKE makes it easier to see, straight through you now..
you're so HATEFUL sometimes, throwing punches and lies,just to say you're in LOVE (not with me)
You hang yourself from stolen dreams, and under the table you hide every stain.
(I'd love to) watch disappear the dream you hold so dear, let it FADE
Take this time to realise, you always shut your eyes, in the mist of a trial
This circle NEVER ends, and its time you just FACE IT, dont PRETEND that it's OVER -.-
You always force a smile, and everything is always right.
You've pushed it aside, pretend that its GONE (Y)
(and it never ends..)
I climb, I slip, I fall,reaching for your hand, but I lay here all ALONE.
Im starving for you here, with my undying love.
There's NO HOPE for today.
Maybe there's another way (but I dont see it)
I had it ALL, but NOT what I wanted.
Hope for me was a place uncharged and overgrown.
You cant tell me to FEEL.
Truth never set me free, so I did it MYSELF (maybe not in the best way..)
Its only the real world, a life you WOULD NEVER KNOW.

YOU LOOK LIKE I DID, YOU RESIST ME JUST LIKE THIS, YOU CANT TELL ME TO HEAL.

It HURTS remembering how it felt to SHUT DOWN.
All that is waiting for you, wont come any closer, you've got to REACH OUT.
You dont like me? well I guess I'll make my own way
I CANT EXCITE YOU ANYMORE (Y)
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me, sentence me to ANOTHER life
DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR SAD SONGS, I DONT WANNA FEEL YOUR PAIN, WHEN YOU SWEAR ITS ALL MY FAULT CAUSE YOU KNOW WE'RE NOT THE SAME.
You treat me just like another stranger, well its nice to meet you sir, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way OUT.
The same tricks that once fooled me, they wont get you ANYWHERE. Im not the same kid from your memory, now I can fend 4 myself.
Cant make my own decisions, or make any with precision.
It has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy. You dont deserve a point of view if the only thing you see is YOU.
This is the LAST second chance..
I know you wont believe me, but the way I see it..
The angles were all wrong, now she's ripping wings off of butterflies.
Her prince finally came to save her! but it was a TRICK ¬¬
Keep your feet in the ground, when your head's in the clouds..
BURY the castle.
You built up a world of magic, cause your real life is tragic.
If its true you can see it with your eyes, even in the dark, and that's where I want to be.
Seems like its getting harder to believe in anything just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
To see nothing in the light, or TURN IT OFF.
Before it gets any better we're heading for a cliff.
In the FREE FALL i'll realize Im better off whne i hit the bottom.
I can see behind your CURTAINS.
its non existing, but we JUST KEEP BELIEVING
I wanna know what i'd be like to find perfection in my pride.
I'll never sing of love, if it does not exists.
I know, somewhere deep in my soul that love never last.
I've always lived like this, keeping it comfortable, DISTANCE.
We still live in the same town well dont we? But I dont see you around anymore (Y)
I wont look back, cause there's no use, its time to MOVE FORWARD.
YOU LIVE INSIDE A CAVE, YOU BARELY GET BY, THE REST OF US ARE TRYING.
I try not to think of what MIGHT HAPPENED.

The worst part is that THIS, THIS COULD BE YOU.And you KNOW IT too.

Im always wrong but, you're NEVER right.
I've always wanted this. Its not a dream anymore, its worth fighting for.
Could've given up so easily.
GOD KNOWS THE BAND DOESNT ANOTHER BAND, BUT WHAT A WASTE IT'D HAVE BEEN.
WE'RE JUST GETTING STARTED! (los amooooooooooooooo)
Give me attention, I need it NOW!
Making pictures, where the lines overlap.
tell me how you've got so far, never making a SINGLE sound.
Im not used to it, but I can learn ;)
It might not be here where I feel save.
We all learn to make mistakes and run from them, with no convictions.
Im just one of those ghost, dont need no road.
And we just go in circles, now im told that this is life, and pain is just a simple compromise.
BROKEN HEARTS AND TWISTED MINDS.So I can find someone to rely on, and run to them, full speed ahead..
We're just misguided ghosts, we shouldnt be the same.
Im just a ghost, and STILL the echo me..

THINK OF ME, WHEN YOU'RE OUT THERE. I'LL BEG YOU NICE FROM MY KNEES.ITS A SHAME IM A DREAM.

ALL I WANTED WAS YOU.

I wake up early to black n white reruns that escape from my mouth.
I could follow you to the beginning just to relive the start. Maybe then we remember to slow down in all of our favorite parts
Now im wondering what is fake and what is real..
This is an emergency, so are you listening?
Its really not your fault, noone cares to talk about it.
I've seen love die, way too many times when it deserves to be alive, n i've seen you cry, way too many times when you deserve to be alive.
You give up every chance you get, just to feel new againg
You do your best to show me love but u dont know what love is.

THESE SCARS, THEY'LL NOT FADE AWAY...

I cant believe the news today, why cant close my eyes and make it go away?
how long must we sing this song?
Tonight we can be as one, tonight..
sunday, BLOODY sunday.
There's many lost, but tell me who has won? WE eat and drink while tomorrow he dies.
I was in the sun but feeling cold.
I was broken down, but still looked good.
Dont leave so fast.I was full of life, but spoke the truth.
We are all brighter than stars back home.
I opened up my life to you, I told you everything I knew.You listened so close, when LOVE was just a WAY OUT. But you've turned your HEAD AROUND.
You'll be sorry to hear, im doing fine now (?) sorry to hear, you're without me now.
You blew up the world I've built for us. Throughout the trust I put in you, making me feel like I've been USED.
Ill be alright, just give me time.. (a hundred years it ok?)

I DONT WANNA HEAR YOU'RE DOING FINE NOW, DONT WANNA HEAR, IM WITHOUT YOU NOW (Y)

Your promises never really ment a thing.But they fall from your lips, SO EASILY.
stay away from meeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I never was too good with goodbyes.
Everytime you come around I feel more alive, than EVER.
Maybe we're too young and I dont even know whats real, but I know I've never wanted anyone so bad.
If I let you love me, would you go all the way? be the one im looking 4..

WHY DO I DENY THE THINGS THAT BURN INSIDE, DOWN DEEP IM BARELY BREATHING BUT YOU JUST SEE A SMILE :)

Oh no! I just keep on FALLING, back to the SAME HOLE ¬¬
(do you feel the pressure now?)
You're the only reason, im not letting go!
M I S E R Y
Of us who's counting on?
lets be more than.. THIS.
If you wanna play it like a game, well COME ON! lets plays, cause i'd rather waste my life PRETENDING that have to FORGET you for one whole minute
I've gone for too long, living like im NOT alive, so im gonna start over tonight, beginning with you & I..
No one ever has to know that inside we're BROKEN :D
Im not going, cause ive been waiting 4 a miracle, n im not leaving!
We've got it right, this time, LETS LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND.
I've been waiting for the sun, with my wide eyes, i've seen words that dont belong.
tell me why, we live like THIS.
keep me safe inside, your arms like towers, tower over ME.

WE ARE BROKEN, WHAT MUST WE DO TO RESTORE, OUR INNOCENCE, GIVE US L I F E AGAIN, CAUSE WE JUST WANNA BE W H O L E.

Under red lights, i'll show myself it wasnt forced. We're at war, we live like THIS.
And I'll take the truth at any cost.
I got him where I want hin NOW.
I waited 8 long months, she finally set him free.
GOD it just feels SO GOOD.
Second chances they dont ever matter, people NEVER change, once a whore you're nothing more im sorry that'd never change
I've watched his wildest dreams come true, no one of them involving you!
I never wanted to say this, you never wanted to STAY.
I put my faith in you SO MUCH faith and then you, just threw it AWAY.
Well if you give up, ull get what u deserve!
You were finished long before, we'd have even see the storm, why dont u stand up? be a MAN about it.
well, I dont wanna be the blame, NOT ANYMORE.
Why do we like to HURT so much? I cant decide. You've made it harder just to go on.
Thats what you get when you let your heart win! WHOA.
I wonder how am I supposed to feel when you're not here, cause I've burned every bridge I've ever built, when you WERE here.
PAIN make your way to ME.
I cant trust myself with anything but THIS.
When it rains, on this side ot town it touches EVRYTHING.
SAY IT again, and MEAN IT.
I need an ending, so why cant u stay just long enough to EXPLAIN?
You've made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole.
How could you do it? I NEVER saw it COMING.
What a shame we all became, such FRAGILE BROKEN THINGS.
I'll give it all my oxygen, so let the FLAMES begin.
Somewhere weaknesses are strenght and I'll die searching for it, I cant let myself regret such selfishness.
I believe that there's hope, buried beneath it all, growing beneath it all.

I USED TO BE SO QUICK, SO CLEVER, I USED TO KNOW MYSELF MUCH BETTER.

And its all AGAIN I know we'll stay the same, but REPETITION ENDS IN FAILURE, and everytime I see it in your eyes, when repetition ends, we'll start over.

NOW IM A WALKING CONTRADICTION, SO TELL ME WHATS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE. TEMPORARY, SO DONT HURT ME THIS TIME.

Try to forget love, cause love's forgotten me.
Your heart's been wasted on me.
You've never been so used, as im using you, abusing you my little DECOY.
Its never too late, when Im gone you wont remember a thing.
Im NOT sorry at ALL.I wont be sorry at all. I'll do it OVER AGAIN!
You say the sweetest things and I cant keep my heart from singing along to the sound of your song, my stupid feet keep moving
to this 4 x 4 beat im in time with you, to this 4 x 4 beat I'LL DIE FOR YOU.

SOMEONE STOP THIS.

I've gone too far to comeback from here, but you dont have a CLUE, you dont know what you do to ME.
Someone stop this song, so I wont sing alone.
I NEVER let love in so I can keep my heart from HURTING. the longer that I live with this idea, the more i SINK IN.

A LOVESICK MELODY ITS GONNA GET THE BEST OF ME TONIGHT, BUT YOU WONT GET TO ME, IF I DONT SING..

dont u see im falling?

DONT COME LOOKING FOR ME, CAUSE I'LL BE RIGHT HERE WITH THE WORDS YOU SAID, LOOKING FOR THE WORDS YOU SAY. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID, YOU KNOW.

HOW CAN ANYBODY FORGET THE PROMISES YOU MADE? CAUSE THIS IS HOW THE PROMISE BREAKS.

REWIND TO THE FIRST TIME THAT I FELT IT COMING, I KNEW IT WOULDNT LAST.

MAKE IT QUICK, MAKE IT PAINLESS.

DONT TELL ME LIES JUST SAY GOODBYE.

NOW YOU'RE RUNNING FROM ME, SO COOL, SO SCARED OF WHAT YOU MIGHT HAVE SAID. IF I TOLD ANYBODY, THEY'LL ALWAYS SOON FORGET YOUR NAME, AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A PLACE.

I think we've heard enough from you.
You cant turn back, cause this road is all you'll ever have.
Its obvious that you're dying. DYING.
Yes, you're just a MESS. you do all this big TALKING bla bla bla, so now lets see you walking.
Too alarming now, to talk it out.
Truth or consequence? say it LOUD.
Stuck on you, till the end of time ¬¬
So you invade my sleep, and confuse my dreams, turn my nights just SLEEPLESS EACH.
You're everywhere inside my room. even when I'm alone, i hear your melodeon, you're everywhere INSIDE OF ME.

YOU'RE PUSHING AND PULLING ME DOWN TO YOU. BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT.

When i caught myself i had to stop myself from saying something that I should've never thought of you, OH YOU keep pushing and pullin me down to you.
You've got, you've got it! some kind of MAGIC. hypnotic, you're leaving me breatheless, i HATE THIS, you're not the one I believed in.
Don know what I want, but I know its not. I know in my heart its not YOU.

HOW CAN I DECIDE WHATS RIGHT? WHEN YOURE CLOUDING UP MY MIND. I CANT WIN YOUR LOSING FIGHT, ALL THE TIME.

You wont take away my pride, no not THIS TIME.
The truth is hiding in your eyes.. Im screaming i love you so, but my thoughts you cant decode.
There's something I see in you, it may kill me, I want it to be true.
Do you see what we've done? we're gonna make such fools of ourselfs.
I thought that I had it, but I forget.
I let my dreams CONSUME me.
I wont let you fall away from me. You'd never fade away

Into the wild- quoteeees ♥

I'm going to paraphrase Thoreau here... rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth.
Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.
If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed.
The core of mans' spirit comes from new experiences.
What if I were smiling and running into your arms? Would you see then what I see now?
You are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships.God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things.
Yeah. I am going to take stock of that. You know I am. I want to tell you something. From bits and pieces of what you have told me about your family, your mother and your dad... And I know you have problems with the church too... But there is some kind of bigger thing that we can all appreciate and it sounds to me you don't mind calling it God. But when you forgive, you love. And when you love, God's light shines through you.
Mr. Franz I think careers are a 20th century invention and I don't want one.
When you want something in life, you just gotta reach out and grab it.
Happiness only real when shared.

Christopher McCandless: You are the apple of my eye.
Wayne Westerberg: Outdoorsman. What's your fascination with all that stuff?
Christopher McCandless: I'm going to Alaska.
Wayne Westerberg: Alaska, Alaska? Or city Alaska? Because they do have markets in Alaska. The city of Alaska. Not in Alaska. In the city of Alaska, they have markets.
Christopher McCandless: No, man. Alaska, Alaska. I'm gonna be all the way out there, all the way fucking out there. Just on my own. You know, no fucking watch, no map, no axe, no nothing. No nothing. Just be out there. Just be out there in it. You know, big mountains, rivers, sky, game. Just be out there in it, you know? In the wild.
Wayne Westerberg: Yeah. What are you doing when we're there? Now you're in the wild, what are we doing?
Christopher McCandless: You're just living, man. You're just ther in that moment, in that special place and time. Maybe when I get back, I can write a book about my travels.
Wayne Westerberg: Yeah. Why not?
Christopher McCandless: You know, about getting out of this sick society. Society!
Wayne Westerberg: [coughs] Society! Society!
Christopher McCandless: Society, man! You know, society! Cause, you know what I don't understand? I don't understand why people, why every fucking person is so bad to each other so fucking often. It doesn't make sense to me. Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum. Well, it just...
Wayne Westerberg: What "people" we talking about?
Christopher McCandless: You know, parents, hypocrites, politicians, pricks.
Wayne Westerberg: [taps Chris' head] This is a mistake. It's a mistake to get too deep into all that kind of stuff. Alex, you're a hell of a young guy, a hell of a young guy. But I promise you this. You're a young guy! Can't be juggling blood and fire all the time!

You don't need human relationships to be happy, God has placed it all around us.
The sea's only gifts are harsh blows, and occasionally the chance to feel strong. Now I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong.To measure yourself at least once. To find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions. Facing the blind death stone alone, with nothing to help you but your hands and your own head.
The freedom and simple beauty is too good to pass up...
There is a pleasure in the pathless woods; / There is a rapture on the lonely shore; / There is society, where none intrudes, / By the deep sea, and music in its roar; / I love not man the less, but Nature more... / - Lord Byron
It should not be denied that being footloose has always exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations. Absolute freedom. And the road has always led west.
"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."
Surely all Americans have the right to give their money only to those causes which they support. But what kind of society has this created? A society where the ignorant reign. A society where enlightened must hold their tongues. A nation whose politicians must profess half-hearted devotion to an ancient fable or face the disastrous consequences of speaking their true mind.
henceforth will learn to accept my errors, however great they be
"I have lived through much and now I think I have found what is needed for happiness. A quiet, secluded life in the country with the possibility of being useful to people..." — Leo Tolstoy
Death's a fierce meadowlark: but to die having made something more equal to the centuries than muscle and bone, is mostly to shed weakness

Queremos siempre ser libres para atribuirnos el mérito de lo que logramos, pero preferimos confesarnos esclavos de las circunstancias cuando nuestros actos no son gloriosos. La mediocridad humana.

La ignorancia, aunqe este satisfecha de si misma,tambien es una forma de desgracia.

Nunca pensé qe esto pasaría. Nunca imaginé qe volverías. Es tan irreal. No lo creo, o no lo qiero creer.
Sentir otra vez, VIVIR otra vez, RESPIRAR.
Es todo tan nuevo, tan brillante qe me ciega, me nubla y tengo qe parar, y pensar. No puedo no pensar. Soy racional, a veces demasiado, lo sé.
Tan rara la sensación de qe el gran vació comienza a llenarse, se escuchan más risas, menos qejas. Hay luz, música, donde antes sólo había silencio, y la oscuridad reinaba, como siempre lo hizo.
Qe pienso? nada. solo siento.

No podemos evitar lo qe somos. Podemos ocultarlo, ignorarlo. Pero está.
Latente, tranqilo pero no dormido. Al acecho. Y ataca cuando menos lo esperás.

Nevermind.

Imágenes. momentos. la fantasía camuflada como realidad.
Siempre supe qe esto iba a pasar. Siempre vi el final. Nunca el comienzo, qizas porqe no hubo comienzo alguno. Fue todo mi imaginación? No. Se qe no. Aunqe ya no se qe es verdad y qe no lo es. Todo es tan ambiguo. En la ambiguedad vivimos. Hoy somos oro, mañana carbón. Hoy somos fuego ardiendo, mañana? Cenizas. O quizás menos qe eso, NADA.
Extraños qe no se ven. Tan ensimismados en si mismos, qe lo unico qe ven es su reflejo en el agua. Sólo eso. Y aunqe me este ahogando y gritando por vos, no me ves, no me escuchás. Tan necios somos? En qe nos convertimos?
Unos más del montón, lo qe nunca qisimos ser...

nevershoutNEVER!

Such a shame that my head is not something you can switch on/off. Cause Ill simply disconnect it. To never think again, to never remember. Just to disappear. And to live in the memory of those who care. Or just fade away. Cause when you realize life's not fair, there's nothing else you can do. Just surrender.

Nunca fui feliz. O fui feliz como quise.
pero supongo qe es así. siempre aspiramos a lo qe no podemos llegar, a lo qe no tenemos, a lo imposible. pero nada es imposible.
porqe siempre para mí hay nos? hay restricciones, límites, puntos de salida pero no de llegada.
La historia se mueve en círculos. Mi historia también, pero en círculos viciosos. Ida y vuelta, pero siempre termino en el mismo lugar.
Quizás no es lo mejor, pero es lo único qe conozco. Y qé si me hace mal? Uno se acostumbra al dolor.
Como se acostumbra a todo, el hombre es un animal de costumbre. Eso es lo triste.
Que sea tan fácil acostumbrarse y tan difícil el cambio, para mejor o para peor, pero sigue siendo difícil.
Cómo cambiar cuando acostumbrarme es lo unico qe conozco? Para cambiar, hay qe QUERER CAMBIAR. Sin el deseo, no hay nada.
Sólo pensamientos, solo teorías no hechas realidad ni comprobadas, y de eso no se vive.

Temporary, so dont hurt me his time.
And its all again I know we'll stay the same, but repetition ends in failure.
I'm a walking contradiction.
Tell me why we live like THIS. Give us life again, we just wanna be WHOLE.

If it feels right, maybe it wont be
the last piece of the puzzle of my hearts its in your hands, not in mine.
So try to choose right, I dont wanna fall apart, like I always do.
SAVE ME! you know you can.
Dont go and turn around, running aways of problems, running away from US.
Cause u know that if you do, I wont comeback. Not again. Not into your cold arms that once let me fall, into the deepest dark.

Trying to convince myself you are the only one, its not enough.
I cant help feeling it, not feeling you. Is it wrong? is it a crime?
we know its not. And no matter what I do, I cant see you, I cant feel u anymore. Why?
You've wrapped your heart with such a thick glass,
that neither you can see through it
Your mind doesnt belong to your body, to your heart. (Ive been there too)
We're thinking too much when we are not listening to ourselves
But what if we need to think?
What if the only thing that can save us from this burning hell is a thought?
Why are we suffering when the answer is in front of us?
You always choose the longest road, but watch out!
It might take you NOWHERE.

No more confussions, no more waiting awake for you to call me
no more crying @ night
no more wasted days n nights just thinking about you
no more you n I
why? you blew it away only with words
Congratulations! Im out
are you happy?
'cause this is what you've been praying for, isnt it?

poke me

I look around n I try to find u.
But you're gone, like so many time before
I should know that u always do this
Whenever you find a place to be safe from everyone
you take it, and then, u fade away.
like an amazing dream
the only difference is that u are anything,
BUT amazing.

Can you keep a secret? Cause I cant breathe tonight.

No quiero pensar, imaginar. Qiero vivir, sentir, volar. Qiero qe mis deseos al igual qe mis sueños sean mas qe eso, sean realidades sólidas, qe sean verdades. Qe sean algo mas qe la espera y la distancia, QUE SEAN, que esten, qe fluyan.
Hacia donde? no se. las cosas son mejores cuando no tienen un final predeterminado, aunqe el final es inminente.
Necesito certezas, algo mas qe palabras, porqe la mayoria de las palabras quedan en el viento, o en el recuerdo aunqe no qiera recordar, aunqe no qiera ver ni escuchar, algunas palabras siguen quemando. Como el primer dia en qe se soltaron y aterrizaron en mi memoria qe no perdona ni olvida, lamentablemente me convierte en una victima más. VÍCTIMA DE MÍ MISMA.

me hace bien? no. lo qiero? si. lo deseo? si. lo amo? si.
la concordancia entre el qerer y el deber nunca fue concreta, por lo menos no en mi.
La linea qe separa los limites? no la veo. No hay limites, el cielo es el limite. La muerte tambien.
La sociedad? si, también es un limite. Y la moral ni hablar. Me importan? No.
Por eso no veo la linea, no me importa lo necesario para verla, o no la qiero ver. Ambas conjeturas, seguro.
Nacemos libres, pero no lo somos. Al menos qe nos lo propongamos, al menos qe intentemos luchar contra el sistema, contra todo, nuestro primer enemigo, somos NOSOTROS MISMOS.

El éxito no es el valor supremo, no nos hace felices. Satisface momentaneamente, pero la avidez lo caracteriza, MÁS tiene, MÁS qiere.
Por eso debemos reprogramar nuestra escala de valores e interponer a la felicidad sobre todo, siempre y cuando esta no reqiera pasiones desenfrenadas qe lleven a la locura.
Entonces? Me qedo con el éxito..

n the hardest part is letting go

Nunca me vas a elegir. Nunca vas a dejar todo por mi. Nunca la palabra AMOR te hará recordar mi cara.
Porqe? Porq soy la estúpida qe solo qiere verte bien, feliz; porqe soy la qe seca lágrimas qe otras provocan, porqe soy la qe cura heridas qe no abrió, porqe soy la qe te manda los mensajes más estúpidos sólo para qe sepas qe alguien piensa en vos, porqe me conformo con solo verte y tenerte cerca, porqe soy la qe entrega caricias qe nunca vuelven.
Porqe soy así y no lo puedo evitar. Porqe por más qe intente siempre va a haber otra, porqe siempre fui y seré la segunda (o la tercera, qien sabe?) Porqe no significo nada, y menos para vos. Es tan fácil hablar, decir qe me amás.. Realmente es así? Prefiero acciones. Y si tengo qe guiarme por tus acciones, la palabra AMOR no está en ellas. Otras palabras aparecen, lástima, arrepentimientos, el pasado qe acecha a más no poder.. pero amor? todavía no lo encuentro..